pregnant lady chit chat

Sedar tak sedar dah bulan 2..aku rasa tahun ni kehidupan aku makin bermakna..tahun lepas bulan 6 kawin, skg tgh mengandung..bby dalam perut ni pon dah masuk 8 bulan..barang2 bby banyak yang blom beli lg..nk tgu en suami cuti...almaklum la dia berkhidmat untuk negara..

Lama dah tak update blog..busy menjadi isteri yg bekerjaya..arini cuti sebab federal day..semalam pon cuti sebab ada appointment ngn doktor asmah kat pusrawi..ble doktor cakap bby songsang..sedih la jugak..hmm tak per think positive..ada masa utk bby berada dikedudukan yg betol..kene byk sujud( tak kan sujud kosong..pesan mama wat la solat sunat) insyaallah..aku da lagik 1 bln lebih..aku wat utk baby...

tak sabar rasa nk tgu bby keluar...asyik tendang jer..anak mama da tak sabar nk keluar yer..kata doktor anak mama ni selalu letak tangan atas kepala..ape la yg difikirkn baby yer..ker aku yg byk pk sampai effect baby?? hmm maybe..byk benda yg aku pk..Ya Allah permudahkan urusan hamba mu..

Kadang2 cemburu tgk pasangan lain..husband sentiasa ada disisi..bkan bermaksud en suami tak bersama suami..cuma bila time dia kerja tak sama macam org lain..walau apa pun kne redha.bukan senang suami nk cari rezeki utk aku ngn bby..hmm tapi kadang2 tu sunyi la jugak..depan en suami nampak jer aku cool jer..tp kan belakang...kang2 sedih sgt...

Hati bersabarlah..May be ini dugaan utk aku...

Year 2010

waa lama nye au tak tulis blog..hmm bila kte sunyi kte tulis blog..ikot kajian pompuan ni suka luahkan feeling dia guna blog..tak kira sedih ker happy ker..this is how we express our feeling..hehe cakap org putih ler plak..

tahun 2010 dah hampir melabuh tirai..tapi byk benda lagi yang aku plan tak jadi..

Aku tak paham nape pompuan especially aku ni hmmm..selalu merepek meraban...then lastly aku pon tak paham per yang aku nk sebenarnye dalam hidup aku..

for many thing happen...and it continue to happen again and again and again...

I'm deepppplllly sorry e..I don't know what goes wrong..i really dont know what to do..U are a great the most patient person i ever meet.. but the true is hurt when u not around aku rasa sunyi...

true love ni wujud ker??aku rasa ramai org yang sampai mati mencari...tp aku tak pasti..ada yang lucky coz he or she find his true love..

but me...still searching...jodoh pertemuan ajal maut and rezeki ni semua kerja Allah..

So biar la tahun 2010 ni berlalu..and aku redha ngan apa yang dah pon berlaku..Kalu ni semua berlaku atas kehendakNya utk menguji kesabaran & keimanan aku aku redha..

Aku harap sgt next year..dengan tahun baru ni membuka mata hati aku yang selama ni sentiasa ditutup oleh benda yang tak patut...supaya tahun baru ni aku beroleh kemenangan di dunia dan akhirat...

Aku da banyak wat dosa tahun ni.. mulut aku..tangan aku...aurat aku...so moga tahun ni aku nk dunia dan akhirat aku selamat...

long time no write

it's been awhile aku tak on blog...lama jugak la..nk tulis apa pon tak tau...hmmm rindu kat kawan2.....kat bf2 yang lama....naper la aku ni sengal....bf ada tp tak menghargai...bodoh kan that natural feeling...bila tak da baru kte appreciate..mmg stupid..but it's life deal and accept it..

skg musim bola..my fav team da balik..dun cry for me argentina the truth is u go back without the cup..so team aku dah tukar german and spain...mati la...

boleh tak klu nk cari kawan lelaki?hmmm nk kena maki ni cari gaduh la...hehe....sengal la...

last weekend had a great time with my frend...best ler...caya lah... go go gurl...

one litre tears...

wat else I can say...another sad love story the actor is XXXXX the actress is me...

wat happen to me?keep on hurting people feeling...teringat this song from weezer...

Yesterday I went outside
With my mama's mason jar,
Caught a lovely butterfly
When I woke up today
Looked in on my fairy pet
She had withered all away
No more sighing in the breast

I'm sorry for what I did
I did what my body told me to
I didn't mean to do you harm
Everytime I pin down what I think I want it slips away
The goal slips away

Smell you on my hands for days
I can't wash away your scent
If I'm a dog then you're a bitch [pause]
I guess you're as real as me
Maybe I can live with that
Maybe I need fantasy
Life of chasing butterfly

I'm sorry for what I did
I did what my body told me to
I didn't mean to do you harm
Everytime I pin down what I think I want it slips away
The goal slips away

I told you I would return
When the robin makes his nest
But I ain't never coming back
I'm sorry
I'm sorry
I'm sorry

teringat zaman sekolah..dorg men band for this song..

such a beautiful song...

if i can i wat to reverse everyting...

but one thing for sure

"it didn't happen"

wat else to say...

2010

2010...
hmmm 2009 dah pon berlalu..skg 2010..sekejap jer kan?
so tahun ni aku nk sihat n kurang kan berat badan..ada saving sendiri..nk celeb acu & kak shima nye wedding, nk gii indonesia lagi...hmm..

to be continue

new thing to explore

there is a moment when you see, feel, think..everything is against you..so what should you do?

1. Quit your job..(that what i do..next month i quit from my job...I don't know is it the right decision I've made)

2. Find new hobby(Yup new hobby, instead of you do shopping,blogging, chatting, try to do new thing...for me what I've done recently quite new..I read the novel which more towards islamic..Sometime it is good to be out off shell)

3. Go and pampered your self..(go spa babeh..so relexing but bit expensive)

Just make your self happy by explore a new thing..who know you might get new or expend your networking...)

new hobby

haha....l got a new hobby...it start from my brother..aku pon tak tau sejak bila dia syok jadi petani.... nk kata berjaya ...hmm ble tahan la...jeles gak tgk kat dia nye farm byk deco aku plak simple jer..

pasti ramai yang tak paham kat per yang aku cakap kat....ni suma start dgn farmville kt face book...aku pon da addicted..hampeh tol...skg aku dah level 9..kejap ker...kan...pas ni aku nk deco aku nye kebun utk jadi lebih melatop...hehe...konon nye la..aku mana ada masa nk spend depan pc kan....